Night minded - night person.. I am!

Up. Down
It's feel so hard too breath. Hyperbolic.

Seriously, I hate to love this. What does it mean?
Simply called 'hate to love'.

But, what?

Well, listen, directly close your ears if you hate to listen this 'unimportant' thing.

Or just go away. Stay away from me. You'll be better doing that than standing next to me and hear me talking about all those hypocritical things.

But, thank you to stay here. You can also talk to me what you need to.

Come on. Go ahead.

How about futuristic things?
It can be our dreams, family, crazy ideas, idealism and soooo on. . .

We agree that high school students have idealism, right?

We are still young. High pride.
High risk.

High creativity. And all that crazy stuffs.
Say it.

That's fine.

My senior said high school period is time we form our future perspective. Our idealism forming in mind. Our pride running high. And begin to do all the things, just for fun.

Yeah, for fun. Mostly that's quote true. I bet that. Lol :D

How much from us wanna do 'stupid' thing? Something we hate to do, we wouldn't do that, honestly.

Get the point?
Cause I'm not. lol :p

Thanks to hear me and all short weird discussion.
Maybe we kinda weirdo. OK, not you. Just me,, :p


See you soon!

-derelict-

Before I Close My Eyes,, It's Burden in My Mind. lol

It's sunday,,
Tomorrow is monday. In the middle of March, 2010.
It's cold. Rain's stop this evening. But still, sky around me is cloudy, black, brown. Cold.
I see nothing but empty. Maybe some stars blinking on me. I just can't see it through my eyes tonight.
Does every cloud has silver linings?
I'm not really sure 'bout that. Am I that sceptic person?
Not always. Just tonight.
Just when I started to realize. . .
I dont know how to say this.
What do you think I need to say?
No idea, huh?

Well, I know it's hard.
It's crazy. Not really for me, actually.
But, for you or someone else, it's kinda crazy thing.

I need to say. I just dont give fuck with all this shit.
I dont wanna care about it. But I do care!

Confuse?
Congratulation, you're the normal one.
Describe about this makes me crazy, stark crazy.
Do you think I am?
Am I that crazy? Or just my brain sign me that way?

Just dont comply me too high.
That's hurt, and killing me deep.
Yeah, that's true. Cause I'm obvious person. I say what I need to.

Did you mind?
Sorry, but actually, idk. I Don't Care. You and your problem is totally not my business.

Me and my trouble isn't your business. You are not me! Right?

I know I'm true.
Since you try to make me do something I don't have to. I know. I know. I know.

Ouchhh,,
It's my mind again. Try to split out. Burst out all the defiant, dangerous mind.

Blame on me.
That's fine.
I am fine. Really fine. And I hope that's true.
Of course that's it!

Arrghh. . .

I've got no option.
I wanna tell somebody. I hate to.
I have to and I hate to!

Well, I'll tell you later.
If i'm not forget this sesion..
Peace out!

Good night!
Have a nice dream all!

-smothering.breath-

Song of Desperation

Am I insane or stark crazy?
Am I sick or stuck of all?
Am I loser or losing sucks?
Will I be killed or rather to suicide myself?

Am I the freak one or the frustated one?
Am I precious or just priceless to have?
Am I really the murder or just the brain of the killer?
Am I the eye of the storm or just the wind blow next to you?

Am I your bitch or your slut machines?
Am I losing my mind or losing my head?
Am I retarded or am I just overjoy?
Am I deserve to die young or live long?

Am I starting to disturb you or look for your eyes?
Am I truly the angel or the Hades queen?
Am I the cold one or the hot one?
Am I that rebel or just the real defiant?

Am I really blind or I just cant see myself?
Am I the evil one or the demonic one?
Am I too obvious or too honest for world?
Am I that dangerous or too hurt people?

Am I a loaded gun or hands on the trigger?
Am I an agnostic or an atheist one?
Am I the rockstar or the mad scientist?
Am I a believer or the polytheist?

(Humm, I little bit- alot maybe- crazy :P)
Whatever, idk,
Enjoy your tour!

See ya soon!

-Cloud.Silver.Linings-

Wait

I will keep my spirit up.

For always waiting for you.

I dont even care about feeling to me.

As long as I can wait.

Cause I totally need you.

Now

I lay my hand on my face,

but I swear I will be the one.

I will be the only.

Im gonna be the answer of your hardest question.

I will make a revolution.

To be the best.
To be the only one.

And I swear I will do my best.

For you my Lord,,,


'hear the sound of ethnician music'

I lay my hand on my face,

but I swear I will be the one.

I will be the only.

Im gonna be the answer of your hardest question.

I will make a revolution.

To be the best.
To be the only one.

And I swear I will do my best.

For you my Lord,,,


'hear the sound of ethnician music'